Most Wednesdays (or thereabouts) I’ve been recording a Curiosity Journal to recap the previous week using these tag words: reading, playing, learning, reacting and writing. Sometimes I mix up the order, just to keep you on your toes.
Playing
On the schedule this afternoon: photography and haikus (see “Learning” below).
Reading
From the chapter entitled “Moon Shell” from Anne Morrow Lindbergh’s Gift from the Sea:
Certain springs are tapped only when we are alone. The artist knows he must be alone to create; the writer, to work out his thoughts; the musician, to compose; the saint, to pray. But women need solitude in order to find again the true essence of themselves: that firm strand which will be the indispensable center of a whole web of human relationships. She must find that inner stillness which Charles Morgan describes as “the stilling of the soul within the activities of the mind and body so that it might be still as the axis of a revolving wheel is still.” (Lindbergh 50-51)
How to find this stillness and solitude? Is it as easy as finding some spot to sit alone for a few minutes, or hiring someone to watch the kids in order to escape to a park? For those women who work at an office, must they preserve a lunch hour strictly devoted to time alone?
Perhaps, though Lindbergh suggests something I have found to be true, as well—that solitude and stillness begin inside:
The problem is not entirely in finding the room of one’s one, the time alone, difficult and necessary as this is. The problem is more how to still the soul in the midst of its activities. In fact, the problem is how to feed the soul. (51)
Woman’s life today is tending more and more toward the state of what William James describes so well in the German word, “Zerrissenheit—torn to pieces-hood.” She cannot live perpetually in “Zerrissenheit.” She will be shattered into a thousand pieces. on the contrary, she must consciously encourage those pursuits which oppose the centrifugal forces of today. Quiet time alone, contemplation, prayer, music, a centering line of thought or reading, of study or work. It can be physical or intellectual or artistic, any creative life proceeding from oneself. It need not be an enormous project or a great work. But it should be something of one’s own. (55-56)
Writing
Three deadlines loom—but what an honor to have deadlines, for that means someone wants my words!
Also, from the editor’s desk, have you seen Diana Trautwein‘s story today at The High Calling? Read it, and then phone, write, pray for and hug all your friends and family.
Learning
Thanks to the good people at Tweetspeak Poetry, we know exactly how to write a haiku. So, no excuses, right? I expect to see some haikus in the comments below. Or over at Tweetspeak, if you prefer. You know you want to try your hand at one…
Reacting
When Mr. Rogers died ten years ago, I wrote a poem. In honor of his passing, I am republishing it, slightly edited, today:
Today in the Neighborhood
February 27, 2003
I wonder if my mother sighed today
when she set down the paper.
I wonder if she wept,
or smiled,
or prayed.
Someone died today.
Someone who provided Mom with
half an hour of freedom,
solitude,
relief.
Someone died,
whose soothing voice filled the living room
of our house on Duffey Street
and freed my mom to read a mystery,
work on her newspaper column,
or take a shower.
Mr. Rogers died today.
Mr. Rogers,
who zipped up his sweater
five days a week,
offering comfort and security
during the tumult of the late ‘60s and ’70s
when I was small and needed someone
to show me how to tie my shoes
sit in a dentist’s chair,
and feed the goldfish.
He trolleyed me away
from the low rumble
of my father’s frustration
with everything,
it seemed.
Mr. Rogers was a friend to me
and to my mother,
a woman tending her children
while composing a career
in spite of a husband who never
changed a diaper
or stirred spaghetti
or understood her need to pour words onto paper.
The sweater,
the shoes,
the trolley
offered her, too, comfort and security
in a tumultuous life
by creating space.
Mr. Rogers smiled at my mom each morning
as I stopped peppering her with questions
about tornadoes and tadpoles
and settled down on the gray carpet
or the green vinyl chair.
Maybe she smiled at the screen,
or nodded,
or sighed.
Maybe she whispered, “Thank you,”
as she retreated to the bedroom
or the kitchen table
for a moment of quiet
with a ballpoint pen,
a blank notebook,
and a mug of coffee.
Mr. Rogers was a friend to us both.
But I wonder today, on this day he died,
if he somehow meant more to my mom
who was reaching for identity
through the lifeline of writing
while teaching two young children to read
from flashcards she made by hand
and flipped for us to practice
until we spouted “happy” and “sad”
and “you” and “me”
And “Mommy”
And “Daddy”
And “Neighbor.”
© 2003 Ann Kroeker
Revised February 27, 2013
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Work Cited: Lindbergh, Anne Morrow. Gift from the Sea. New York: Pantheon Books, 1975. Print.
Thanks for highlighting the haiku graphic, Ann. 🙂
The poem for Mr. Rogers is very touching.
Thanks, Lyla, for stopping by and offering your response here. It means a lot.
Ann, I think I’ll have to assign myself a haiku tomorrow. Not sure I’ll be ready to share… 🙂
I’m going to have to purchase Gifts from the Sea for my get away weekend with my hubby for our 20-yr anniversary celebration next month. Thank you for pointing me in that direction.
Loved the touching images on Mr. Rogers. I never thought about how he blessed my mom — but I’m sure he did, much like yours. I sat on a black fake leather couch or on an oval braided rug. I liked the trolley, too. Good thoughts. Thank you.
Julie, the nice thing about Gift from the Sea is that it is short and manageable. I also find it interesting that so many of her thoughts are still applicable, even though she wrote it in the ’50s.
Thank you for taking time to comment on the Mr. Rogers poem, too. I’m sure most people of our generation can place ourselves in childhood in relation to that TV set and Mr. McFeeley and the whole crew.
My Gift from the Sea is so tattered. Thanks for reminding me of that passage. Perfect for a Still Saturday…
And Diana’s piece was exquisite.
Sandra, I’m so glad you liked Diana’s piece–I was working with both of you around the same time, actually, and both ended up in a more vulnerable place than either of you thought when you first dove in!
Ann – Just yesterday I re-read Gift from the Sea – and thought about the timelessness of AML’s words. She led such a complex life yet managed to articulate simplicity in the most winsome way. Lovely to be on the same page as you on the same day!
No way! How wild, that you pulled that out. I agree–even though she wrote in 1955, she recognized some of the dangers of our live spinning out of control and the need for peace and quiet and reflection and creativity.
ps – and it still brings me to tears when I think of little ones listening who never heard from anyone else in their lives the Christlike blessing of Fred Rogers, “I like you just the way you are.”
Sue, this is beautifully put.
I need to say that to my teens right about now.
Oh, Ann. I LOVE the Mr. Rogers’ poem. I am your mom’s age, I gather, because I was so grateful for him I practically cried every time he came on. But I generally watched him with my son, who was the one of my three who adored him. I needed someone to tell me I was special, too. :>) Thanks again for your invitation to write for THC, for your guidance and encouragement – and for this kind link here at your blog.
Thank you, Diana! You ARE special! I’m so glad your piece has touched so many readers. You put yourself out there, and I believe God used you and Anita today to bless us all.
Actually, “Gift From the Sea” was special to me, too, and I have given many copies of it as gifts. Did I give one to you? I was reviewing books when her series of letters came out, and I felt a close affinity to her. For someone who seemed so privileged she had many tough trials and it was no picnic being married to to Lindbergh. If you have time and inclination to get into her life, check the bookcase on the south wall of the living room next time you are out–I have all the volumes except the last one.
I’m not surprised that you felt that affinity, and yes, you gave me one of the paperback editions you had at home–thank you! I picked up a hardbound edition at a used bookstore, and thought I might try to find four: one for me to keep, and three to give to my daughters! 😉